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Muffin's Ramblings  So, this poem was sent to me one day. She really did manage to convey what it's like you know? It's a horrible drug, and once you take it... you're never going to be the same. Each time you use it, it will destroy a part of your brain. Even if you do manage to quit, it doesn't matter. You have changed forever. I had a mother once you know, I wish I knew where she went. The last time I seen the woman I knew was when I was 12. I don't know when she starte using it, because like all addictions, something else came before it. First there was alcohol and it claimed both of my parents. It tore them apart. It nearly cost me my dad, and I don't know what I would have done. I thought alcohol was bad, but it's nothing compared to this. Then came the drugs, ecstasy and cocaine. I nearly lost my mom to cocaine too. I was in school one day, and she had a heart attack while working. I had to leave class, since I was the only one who could go with her to the hospital on the ambulance. Then this... abomination came about. Of them all, I hate it the most. It's claimed a lot of people you know. My sister managed to get out its grasp but I'm not sure if it'll stay that way. My dad, it's got him too but he won't admit it. But I'm afraid... afraid my mom can't get out. She doesn't seem to care, and you can't quit if you're not ready. If she keeps going, I'm sure it'll kill her... I really am. But then... why am I so worried? She's not my mother anymore. ---- This was written by a young girl who was in jail for drug charges, and was addicted to meth. She wrote this while in jail. As you will soon read, she fully grasped the horrors of the drug, as she tells in this simple, yet profound poem. She was released from jail, but, true to her story, the drug owned her. They found her dead not long after. This thing is worse than any of us realize... I am meth. I destroy homes, I tear families apart, I take your children, and that's just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold, The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. If you need me, remember I'm easily found, I live all around you - in schools and in town I live with the rich, I live with the poor, I live down the street, and maybe next door. I'm made in a lab, but not like you think, I can be made under the kitchen sink. In your child's closet, and even in the woods, If this scares you to death, well it certainly should. I have many names, but there's one you know best, I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth. My power is awesome, try me you'll see, But if you do, you may never break free. Just try me once and I might let you go, But try me twice, and I'll own your soul. When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie, You do what you have to -- just to get high. The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms. You'll lie to your mother, you'll steal from your dad, When you see their tears, you should feel sad. But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised, I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways. I take kids from parents, and parents from kids, I turn people from God, and separate friends. I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride, I'll be with you always -- right by your side. You'll give up everything - your family, your home, Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone. I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give, When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live. If you try me be warned - this is no game, If given the chance, I'll drive you insane. I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind, I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine. The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed, The voices you'll hear, from inside your head. The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see, I want you to know, these are all gifts from me. But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart, That you are mine, and we shall not part. You'll regret that you tried me, they always do, But you came to me, not I to you. You knew this would happen, many times you were told, But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold. You could have said no, and just walked away, If you could live that day over, now what would you say? I'll be your master, you will be my slave, I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave. Now that you have met me, what will you do? Will you try me or not? It's all up to you. I can bring you more misery than words can tell, Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell. Judy West Current mood:  Hmm.
Soo... Birthday is on Wednesday. I plan for people to leave me alone, though we'll see how well that works out. I'll tell you this though, if they don't bring me an apple pie they can just go away. Yeah sure I'll be twenty, but really it's just another year to me. A really boring year if you ask me, and I haven't really accomplished all that much... but eh. In other news, I have no freaking voice. But that doesn't really bother me too much since I don't really talk a whole lot. Have an interview with a culinary school on the seventh. AHHHHHHHHHHH! Could have been today but there's that whole no voice thing. Err, I think that is all. Current mood:  =D.
I really need to update more. ;3; Uuh... lots of stuff happened! The end. :DDD In recent news, I have a phone interview for a culinary school. Ugh.. hope I don't blow. =.-;; It's my school of choice. Ahhhgh! Yeah, soo uhh maybe I will try to be a little more active or something. Current mood:  Damn Depression...
Hmm, yes so I've finished The Half-Blood Prince. It was rather interesting to find out who it was. @_@;; I had expected it to be fairly angsty much likw 0otP, apparently not. It was actually pretty amusing in parts, until the end but I really hadn't expected it to end on a happy note. I'll say this much, OotP gave a lot of forshadowing as to who dies within this book, and I was expecting it, but I was expecting it to be in book 7. Still musing... =3 Ehehe... haven't updated in forever. ;3; Umm... well lots of stuff happened? Yes, a lot of stuff happened... and uhh yeah. 
Current mood:  cranky.
Rawr! Yeah... I'm so strangely calm. I don't know why and it's starting make me worried. o.o What if it's like the calm before the storm? I imagine it is... hopefully the storm will take awhile to get here. Current mood:  Unusually Calm....
Rawr? o_o; Must make some decisions, particularly ones that won't fall apart after awhile. Mostly about school, and exactly what is I want/can do for the rest of my life. xP Need to find a new college. >.>;; I'm thinking I'll pick one that's farrrrrrr away from this... little pit of despair that claims it is indeed a city. Hmm... hard to make a choice though, with so many other thoughts in my head. Particularly two looming, depressing things. Hopefully those will pass soon...must concentrate on more important things. Well, I've written more than I intended to... so yeah. Really, I am. Today, I gave up the best thing that ever happened to me. Damn selflessness... =_=; Yeah so today sucked... that's all I'm gonna say. Spooky: I demand that you eat me... >.>;; Since it's your twisted way of making things better. Current mood: Stupiiiiddddddd.
There's so much snow, makes me wonder what happened to the rainy city I remember... Oh well, snow isn't so bad for it is at least nice to look at. Also you can throw snow at people, random unsuspecting people. Too bad there are no such people around here. Well I'm mostly busy working on commissions, school things, getting rid of the constant headache and my book. I must say editing and formatting is very tedious, and I most certainly do not enjoy it. Not in the least. Things seem strangely calm, a little too calm if you ask me. I'm waiting for an explosion or something. This isn't natural... or maybe I'm just used to walking on egg shells. Can't be good, if that's the case. In some unrelated news, I do get mad... =3 A lot more than people would expect. I mean you can't be mean without getting mad once in awhile. Some things that anger me... 1. My Mom... 2. Racism... which there tends to be a lot of these days. =/ 3. Stupid people, they also seem to be in abundance. 4. Other random stuff that don't come to mind at the moment. Anyways... I think I'll go work on stuff that needs to be worked on. Current mood:  Yes... I am.
Hah... I'm so slow with updating. I blame it on my laziness and umm life in general. =X Why do people always make me busy when it's time for to relax? Which you know, means I never relax. Also, somedays I wish I never knew half the things I know. It's frustrating, and most of the time I'm the only one that knows, along with the person that told me. I swear one day, all these secrets are gonna spew out of me. @-@;; Anyways... Happy New Year and all that jazz. Hopefully this one will be better than the last, but I doubt that. It's already taken the wrong path... Argh. More decisions to make because the ones I've already made don't fall through because something else always happens. Blah... I think I'll go doodle... at 2am. Current mood:  artistic.
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